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These are my resolutions fer 2006. ( Taken frm my past entry)

Spend more quality time with my frens and family (^^)
Save up more money. (X)
Get a bf , LOL. (X)
Try out more new things . (X)
Travel more to experience the world (X)
Dont be soO sacarstic. (^^)
Get more serious at work. (^^)
Learn to appreciate things ard me more. (^^)
Stop being soO short-tempered at times. (...)

I was blogging the previous post earlier and thought of resoultion fer 2007. It had been a flying year for me. Time really flies this year. Earlier on this year, I was still unsettled with my poly stuffs and was worried abt whether I could get along well with my new classmates.(Well, everything had been moving smoothly fer me now.) But now, I am so comfortable in RP and I am moving on to year 2 soon. Just this alone makes me feel woah!! Year 2006 had also made me realised upon how impt is family is to me.Looking at 2006 is going to just fly off just like that. I felt I had done nth throughout this year. I had been working and working like a workaholic earned nth but plenty of acquaintances. LOL. I had made new friends and lost some. I had gained life experiences and incidents which I wouldnt forget fer life. A good year and moving on for a better 2007 =))

Resolution for 2007.
; I would want to slim dwn more.
; I would want to pick up piano and french lessons.
; I would want to able to save up money.
; I would want to have more determintion in whatever I do.
;I would want to spend more time with my family.
;I would want to score a GPA of 3 in every of my modules in year 2.
And lastly, I would want to be a better person in 2007. =)))
Lets see how much had I fufilled them in 2008. =))

Saturday, December 30, 2006

Leave everything in 2006. Lets create a new 2007.

I am dead beat. I almost died today. The amount of work is simply huge. 2 of my collegues are on MC and left me with a new-comer fer the ladies and mans' section. Thats was only partial of the reason why I almost died today. I was bending now and packing my shelves suddenly PIANG !! the arcylic board dropped on my head. SI BEI PAIN YOU KNOW !! Especially is the sharp corner end poke my head. Wah lau eh. I suddenly feel that I am so ke lian over there. LOL. But really lah, it is really really very pain. I thought there will be blood all over my head and my head will be covered by blood oozing out. ( I am exaggerating abit too much .) But i really thought there will be blood. But heng don't have or else I will sue that customer fer "gao luo pou wu" ( high rise dumping) LOL.

Everyone asked me where am I going fer the countdwn tml. I dont know. Perhaps not going anywhere. I will be dead bushed after work. Besides that, after work will be around 10+ if I were to meet anyone I think the countdwn alreadly finish before I reached there. I think I would just go home slp and prepare myself fer the shopping trip next day =)))

Thursday, December 28, 2006

you would never know how much I want every of my beautiful moment is you.

hahs, before i could go round and knocking other's blogs and complain that they are nt being a responsible blogger I think I should talk some crap in my blog too =)

It had been a long time that I chatted with my scandal. Scandal, i am really very happy that you had found your love and hope that when i chat with you next time you wouldnt have a another someone eh ?!

I envy blinkymummy who has a bf who treats her SKII spa package fer her xmas and kailyn having such a romantic bf who planned everything so nicely fer her. thinking of it, it had been 4 happy yet miserable year fer me. Perhaps I should grab anyone I see next time. (i am just kidding) Bumping into my pri sch teacher brought back many memories. I realised how much I am being doted by everyone around me. From family to friends. I have aunties and uncles who dote on me the most by giving me the biggest hong bao during CNY and saving good foodies fer me whenever i go ah gong/ah ma's home. I have friends who gave in to me and loving me fer who I am. "wan qian chong ai zai yi shen" I think this phrase can be promptly used on me. Sometimes i blamed myself fer being such a ungrateful kid fer blaming heaven bestowing me such a good life which everyone envys. I said I had a good life because I have my loving family and frens; I get along well with everyone(some says I have this magnetic field which attarcts ppl to befriend me); I live without worries fer tml; I have sufficent food and a cover over my head. I should be grateful. But I am such a insatiable kid at times. Not knowing everything I had is whatever someone else dreams of.
From eunice's blog.
I always complain about not having a nice nose, until I saw someone without a nose.
I always complain about not having a nice house to live in, until I saw someone without a shelter.
I always complain about not having good food to eat, until I saw someone who don’t even have a plate.
I always complain about no nice shoes to wear, until I saw someone with no legs.
I always complain about not being able to sing well, until I saw someone who has no voice.
I always complain about the workload, until I saw someone without a chance.

I should be grateful fer whatever I have now. I should be complacent.

Monday, December 25, 2006

A merry merrry xmas may to all !! <33

WooHoo !! I am back from few days of resting and working. Had plenty of fun in the past few days. Did plenty of meet up(s) with sec sch pals and stuffs. Oh ya, before I forget thanks fer every single people who had sent me a season greeting !! THANKS !!<3

Went to escape on last friday. I had finally conquered every single thing in Escape except fer the inverter which is always down. LOL. During one of the ride ( the pepsi one i think) , LF and SW thought I fainted cause I didnt scream at all !! Actually its because I am just too afraid to open my eyes and see the "beautiful scenery" according to them. I only heard screamssssssss and my body flying out of the sit ONLY !! WTS. But it was real fun lah. We all won a monkey each and we become very "hao lian" and happy kids !!

Back to yesterday which is the eve of the merry day, pathetic me still have to work. But luckily my "nice nice" dave let me go off early which allows me to meet up with dumbass and MISS BF earlier. Hitting the town during xmas eve is a NONO fer me. So we slacked at IMM and waited fer 11pm to come so we can go kbox. But didnt managed to go kbox in the end. WTF lah, S$28+++ fer 3 hours ? KNS, might as well go watch movie which is much more cheaper and almost can waste 2 hours of our time. And we went to catch the curse of the golden flower. It sucks. Really. Only the setting is gorgeorous and glamourous. The storyline sucks. But I think the guys would like the half-revealed boobs alot. The whole show there is plenty of "them" around. I think the guys which is 2 rows infront of us is very high. LOL. Went to find SW and went to amy house and slacked. Had plenty of stupid games which I am the big winner in the game of "5,10,15" LOL. amy and LF was cursing each other and they got very happy when they got me to drink. I was pretty high yesterday and reached home ard 5 in the morning. bathed and sleep. ~~And ya, I wasnt drunk ytd I am just being high !! I think if I am drunk I would hug and shout merry xmas everynow and then !! LOL.~~ Here I am blogging and I think I need to prepare myself fer the xmas dinner tonight. Goodbye everyone !! MERRY XMAS !! Photos up next =))

Friday, December 22, 2006

i need a runaway from all this facade of glamourous.

I do feel tired at times.
I need care and concern at times.
I have my own bad temper day(s).
I don't understand having abit of tolerance and understanding from friends why is it so diff.
Try to put yourself in others' shoes and they will too; but its not the case now.
I tried to convince myself that no matter how bad was it outside I just have to hold on and friends would be dere fer me.
I tried. I failed. I cried. I run away.
Did any cared ? No, I think.
I think I am the pathetic one around. Not anyone else.
My friends don't even sense anything wrong when I don't talk that much.
Perhaps I am asking abit too much from my friends.
Perhaps I shouldnt.

Some ppl says time is not the everything to everything.
When you have long-time friends, doesnt means you know them well or vice versa.
Time doesnt represent anything anymore.
As you grew older, you have more"long-time" friends.
Does it means they know you very well ?
As i grew older, I find that my friendship stopped growing with me fer a very long time ago.
I seems to drift apart from my frens and don't get to understand them anymore.
Scheming, selfish, sacastic is what I saw.
Some friends could even forget or don't know that I hated green tea the most.
I am pathetic I know , I don't need tags to inform me that.
If I am pathetic so do you.
You and me are living in the same world with the same kind of fcuktards around.
Enjoy your stay in this fcukable world with the wonderful fcuktards.

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Oh god , life is such a paradox.Save us from it.

Went to My Humble House @ Esplanade. WooHoo, ambience there is fanatsic. I should bring my secret lover there someday =))) I simply love the cod fish to death. I tell you.. It melts in your mouth straight away when you put it in. Fabulous man. Yesterday marked the 28th year of my parent's wedding anniversary. So sweet lah. LOL.

I saw xiu blog and really felt that money affects every aspect of our life. Ranging from emotional to physically, I saw how money hurts or build up r/s. From young, we are taught to save money or use money wisely. As I grew up, I saw the importance of money. I LOVE MONEY. but money dont love me. Call me money grabber or whatever I don't care. In this realistic world of ours, money spells everything. Money had caused plenty of r/s of my frens and mine to break. A recent incident that happened between the char shao bao(s). I had realised how easily could money break a r/s in we. Perhaps in that situation, money is not the every cause of it but defintely it plays a part. No matter what problem we faced in r/s, surely got to do with money one. Urghhs. Money, i hate you but I need you. I love you but you seems to run at the sight of me. Hais. Paradox of life. What can we do ?

* xiu, no matter what. I and ju will be always there fer you. =))) I will always love you, my dear friend.

Sunday, December 17, 2006

If we were to given a chance to change smth, what would it be ?

Just came back frm work. I changed job again. Call me-wanpin the job-hopper. LOL. Hols had been so far so good. Went out on fri with LF, jeremy ang,shiwei,mak and weechuan. It had been a long while that i met up with them. They are very very very funny and hilarious as usual. Especially that jeremy ang which make me laugh non-stop with his dramatic actions and stuffs. I really think that he can be a great comedy actor in the future; better then Gurmit Singh. Prolly he could take over his place and become the next PCK. LOL. We bought a very "yandao" green stripes tee fer chuan. It's his birthday that day. =)) He is our public-proclaimed yandao amg all. LOL. And that day happened smth which might hinder chuan's happiness. All mak's fault. Who tell him to gek kiang lah. HAHAS. If chuan no gf sure come find you !! LOL. (insider's joke). Life had always been fun with all my sec pals ard. =))))) And we are going escape this fri !! Hope that I see ah chai too !! Miss her damm much. WoohoO. My lala is awaiting fer me. Nights everyone. Work tml !!

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Let this festive of joy & love to be spread to all.

Aloha earthlings !! It had been an quiet week fer me excluding the trip to Escape theme park. Accompanied mom to the doc fer some check-ups and went to IMM fer the FOXS interview. I think it is just the filling up of some documents and chat with dave instead of interview eh. LOL. Going to work there this weekend and I am feeling ~~unhappy~~ abt it.

Oh ya, some of you guys shld had recieved my greeting cards by now. I shall update the pics fer my cards' spree that time with LF.

Some of you guys asked me about my CNY clothes. I shall post some pics next time round. =))

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

See the red circle in the first picture which is very greenish in color ? I threw the ball into the cup at my very FIRST attempt okays. And I won the jumbo prize which is a dog which I didnt like and changed it fer a dumbo instead. =))))))

Nothing blocks you and your determination.

WooHoo. Went out with LF to escape theme park today. They are having a promo till next year I think. 6 bucks per entry. And its quite worth while anyway. ( usual price of an adult tix is S$16.90) Urmm. I think I am very brave today. I tried alot of games which I wouldnt try last time. =)) And I am feeling so proud of myself =)) LF is bad. Kept laughing at me. She says she is very scared when playing those games but upon looking at my expressions , she just kept laughing lah. She says my expression very funny lah. WTS. And made me walked back to the stupid freaking far lockets to take our belonging. Its seems like I am bad-mouthing her eh ? LOL. No lah, she is a very nice person. Cause she lend me to grab her hands when playing those ~~also dunno why they create this kind of machines~~ games. Hahas. I think I am so malu today. I stepped in the haunted house and ran out at the entry. The eye-candy usher asked LF why we came out again. She go tell that usher because I grabbed her out. LOL. I am so scared can ? And there is one particular ride which LF took the whole day to persuade me to play, which is the "rainbow" ride. WTS lah, so high. But it turns out to be fine in the end. I think I am a brave girl today !! WANPIN THE BRAVE LIL GIRL !! Cheer fer me =)) Hiphip hooray !! Oh ya, I almost forget the proudest thing that I done today. I won a dumbo elephant at the very first try of throwing the plastic ball into the cups. I am so happy lah. LOL. But I didnt managed to get the turtle that I wanted anyway. Nvm, we shall go next week okays ? Oh, I am going SDC next week. Maybe on xmas eve you might find me dere ? =))

Life is a journey which is fraught by many obstacles and joy.

Vivo is boring. Nothing much to blog about the vivo dayout on sunday. Bought only few chocolates and my favorite LOLIPOP. Those giantic ones. =)) That really makes my day =)) I love those giantic "pang pang tang" or whatever you call them. I am always attarcted to them and those candy canes which you will only get in xmas !! Mommy had been complained why I always buy those candy canes when I know I wont eat them all. LOL. But its a joy to see them around in my house anyway. Mommy was complaining to my 2nd aunt that I behave like a small kid whenever I see my "pang pang tang " or candy canes and will pester her to buy them fer me. LOL. She couldnt comprehend why I like them so much. Neither I do. LOL. Well. I will post up another post fer my escape day out yesterday.

Saturday, December 09, 2006

Instant karma ; whats goes around comes around.

I was at my ah ma's hm ytd afternoon. I was listening to her grumbling about how my cousins treated her when she tried to ~~nag~~ at them. She was just trying to knock some sense or telling them smth when my younger cousin got so irritated and tried to argued back with her. I saw her sad and disappointed face, it hurts me so. I reminscied what I did when I was younger (ard 16). I often bickered with my mom( all my close frens knew that) and it happened almost every single day. And seeing how hurted can one be when the ones they doted on the most rebutted back on them on whatever they say. I just realised how wrong am I was and felt so guilty about it. At that period of time, I would scream and yell on how much they don't understand me at all, how much depress I was deep inside.

I was looking at LF's blog and she talked abt commit suicide. I was thinking years back, the thought of leaving this horrible world was on and off my mind. I am not afraid on telling everyone I want to commit suicide before. So what ? It's something hideous I know but able to face up to it takes ALOT of courage and I am proud of myself that I could really face to it face to face. I often thought of by just jumping off the building could just bring a STOP to all my problems and my loved ones would just be sad fer a while and will get over it in no longer time. As I grew up, I find that this thinking is wrong, TOTALLY WRONG. We might bring a STOP to the problem by just die like that but brought greater misery to the ones who are still around. I suspected I had depression at that point of time. When I see the window I just feel like jumping down and would cry myself to slp every single day. Oh my, I think I am so scary at that period of time. LOL. And you, my reader if you are thinking of commiting suicide just drop the idea of it. It's silly, truly silly. Believe me.

Carry on with my topic of my ah ma. I asked her to come and stay at my hm instead. She says she doesnt like our bed and my hm is too small to contain another bed fer her. And fer my other uncles and aunties, she says she don't like theirs either. Hais. Thats why mommy says when we get to a certain age , we are very pityful.. We don't have a place to call home and noone to talk to.

Friday, December 08, 2006

Love is an art piece ; even the smallest bit can so beautiful.

Here I am stuck at xiu's hm. I think we are like mad woman laughing our heads off in the train. Heng that juliet isnt here with us. Or else we will be sent to IMH. LOL. I had shook off some fats today all thanks to xiu. I ran after the train frm woodlands than ran after the bus at seragoon. OMG. My cute cute image is tanished by xiu !! =(( Nvm, I think I will still have alot of ppl will think that I am cute !! LOL. Pardon me fer my BHB-ness.

Attended the tour guide workshop this morning. They bluffed us, say the workshop is from 9-6. But ended up we left sch at 1145. =)) But thats a good thing afterall. Headed down to causeway searched fer xiu's cherry apple but no avail. Then carried on our search at seragoon. WTS lah, i think this is not the season fer cherry apples lah, shit xiu made me walk n walk then dunhav. =(( Tour guide workshop thing is fun =)) People at the workshop are crappy and fun going. Eye-candy avaliable also. =))))) We taught to handle tricky situations which "might" happen during the open house. And there is one guy frm my table who is particular crappy can ask the SA ( our leaders) what shld we do when a fire breaks out huh ?! This is still alrite you know, he carried on with " what shld we do when there is terriorism huh?!" WTS lah, where got so serious one. SI BEI BTH.

Xiu showed me her past photos and some pics of her x. ~~Lovely dovely~~ scenes. Urmm. Nvm xiu, we shall build our "lao gu po" hm next time. We shall be the modern " ma jie" LOL.

I often wonder what if I nv come to RP. what will happen if I had nv met xiu and juliet and my wonderful gang of ppl frm W25A and W24R ? Will my life be better ? Will I get more enemys/ friends if hadnt come to RP ? Life is so unpredictable. We never know at the very next moment of our we might meet our MR/MISS right ? If we hadnt come to RP, py and jer wont be together in the first place. I wouldnt know so many besties who are irreplaceable in my life right now. Urmm. I think if I had taken out a diff step now, it would cause a big change in what I am going to do/meet in the future. Who says the past and the future isnt connected?

Thursday, December 07, 2006

I would want a BOYFRIEND FOR MY XMAS THIS YEAR !! =))

Ignore my previous statement. I just couldnt find any fer my headers. LOL. Okays, I admit I am lying. =x

Mommy asked me Why you don't have BF ? I replied " cause .. noone wants your daughter ma" And she seems to be so worried after that. Just hope that match-making sessions wouldnt come after that. LOL. I am pretty fine with my singlehood now and I had made plans fer my future nun life fer my rest of my life. HAHAS . =x

Yesterday marked the first day of hols. WooHOo. Had a "mini" shopping sphree with mommy. Bought a pair of heels and a kappa canvas shoes. And two tops and a bottom. =)) Mostly is fer my CNY. LOL. I think at this rate of shopping, I would have a fashion show by CNY. Hahas. I love the bambi tee that I bought ytd. It is sOo cute can ?! Anyway, I feel that this hols would be fruitful one fer me eh.

The thought of going back sch fer training fer RP's tour guide made me feel so sians. Urgghs. The 1 hour journey to and fro from sch makes me feel sick. Hope that mommy is going down to ah ma's hm early in the morning tml then I can lobang her taxi go to sch =))

I know some ppl had been reading my blog and had been keeping quiet abt it. I know who you are. Feiging ignorant doesnt help. =)

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

I promise to be good ; santa would you grant a lil wish of mine ?

Skipped school today. I wanted to go school so badly today. But somehow, my built-in alarm clock system in me had failed me. Woke up by a call from winnie/mel( i cant remember) and asked me whether am I still coming sch. That was alreadly 0835. They want to skip sch and asked me whether am I interested. =x Met with the gang ard 10 ? hahas. Went to buy tix fer the movie-9:56. And went to ate yakun toast after that. =)) Sorry xiu and juliet, promised to lunch with you guys today but. I am sorry =( Anyway, I don't think you two mind right ? LOL. I was scared to death during the movie screening. 9:56 is damm scary lah, I grabbed zhihao hand when he is trying to get some french fries from me. hahas. And he ranted" I only took onee french fries , don't need to grab me" LOL. But everything is fun today. No boring moments with my w42R gang ard. =))

Oh ya, xiu gave me my FIRST xmas gift today. And I love it so much. I had placed it beside my lil baby xmas tree =))

Monday, December 04, 2006

If you can't get someone out your head then let them stay there. Perhaps they are supposed to be there. =))

I am starting to believe people who looks fierce and unfriendly are the ones who treats me the best eventually and those who proclaims as my good frens are the ones who hurts me the most. I don't understand why I had to let every single of my friendship into a situation like this. I hate it when you starts suspecting I had a thing with your boy/eye-candy. I really don't understand. I am starting to think everyone is a evil witch who is named babara. And I don't understand people at all at times, its a small (freakish small) gift shop and there is sOo much politics going on. I don't understand. What do you have to gain from that ? The part of front-stabbing is something that I can't tolerate. Back stabb-ed infront of ME !! I-N-F-R-O-N-T !! WTF. I am sorry to peeps that I had caused inconveniece to. But I don't feel sorry by throwing every single of my responsibility to you. I don't care.

Cabbed back home with lift from li keng. hahas. Only paid ard 4 bucks and li keng paid the rest. =))

The thought of you made me feel sick ; Really. I nv felt this way before. Your actions, the way of YOU handling things made me feel sick. You made me hate love. I don't want to fall fer another special one so soon. I just want to keep my heart to myself fer now; at least fer this period of time. I am starting to feel I don't understand you at all or even had I fallen fer the wrong person in the first place. Must be that. Let's put it straight , I am not going to wait anymore. ( I had stopped waiting ages ago.)

If one day I were to turn my back on you, don't ask me why. You should know the every single reason behind it.

Sunday, December 03, 2006

Let's protect mother nature. We had been bad kids fer so long.

Ellos greeny =) I feel so green today. Perhaps the stroll at the botanic garden made me feel so =)) Wake up early in the morning (oh gosh, somemore its a SUNDAY morning) and accompanied mom to botanic gardens fer her tea-art stuffs =( Strolled by the lakes and forests made me feel mother nature is so great by herself and we should STOP polluting the world !! And I met some interesting ppl too. From the picture grid above, middle row first picture( the one with chi words) There is one "cheena" uncle who uses some kind of sponge and long stick to act as a brush to write this on the floor using water. Its seems so interesting. =)) chinese calligraphy on the floor ? After the tea-art stuff, hit town after that. My legs are giving way. I am broke now. Spent all my salary on clothes and bra(s). Si bei sian diao. LOL.

Went bugis to buy my jeans and skirt ytd. Amy finally bought her clothes which she had been niam-ing fer sOo long but she still didnt bought her shorts still. =x I spent ard hundred bucks ytd and another hundred bucks today. I can see my salary saying bye bye to me. =(( Nvm, you lose to gain more eh ? Too much temptation ard.

Sch ending on tues. I will defintely miss my W24R. I am getting closer with you guys more n more. Urghhs. Meet up during hols okays ? And my w25A, please plan a class gathering soon !! I miss you guys too MUCH !! Ah noor. wheeeeeeeere had you been ???????? My ah liang also ... My soppppppp also !!!!!! =(( Meet up soon okays ?!

Friday, December 01, 2006

Life is a dance, live it up with your passion; your dreams ; your love <3

Hellos earthlings. Hadnt been updating much due to the boring life I have. Xmas is reaching soon and I love this season of love !! I love xmas cards ; xmas foodies ; xmas decor; xmas presents and everything abt this season of love =)) It makes me feel so thrilled upon the thought of it =)) Going fer some shopping this weekends. Perhaps buying some clothes and footy-wear fer CNY. I am very kiasu when comes to this. LOL.

What will you do when you find out your friends got real sick of you and doesnt want to listen to you anymore and they don't understand you at all. Sometimes what one need is just a listening ear which seems to be so hard. Sometimes friends will rant along as you tell them your problems and ended up you become the one listening to their sorrows and troubles. =((