Maybe you read my blog, maybe you don't. But I just want to say..
What I wanted wasn't you. Be rest assured.
I still don't understand what causes the misunderstanding cause I am the SAME to everyone. Maybe like that you said, we got too close and I got too close and everything just freaked you out just like that.
Just then, I thought I had found a new and reliable brother/good guy friend agn and everything is gone right now.
Whose fault? It's mine.
I knew I was trying to get over it and I was trying to make use of you to stop myself from thinking to haywires but I think it's a bad plan somehow cause everything is crashed.
Lesson learnt. Don't get too close to anyone at a short period cause not everyone is comfortable with that.
REWIND REWIND.
- I had gotten used to being alone and now there's someone coming in.. I am still not very comfortable with that. BUT. I just have to get use to it. - I had enjoyed myself in the past few nights with the 'hashbrown' jokes and at the very atas kopitiam. - I gotten a lanyard which I hadn't use yet and it cost me quite a bomb. - I overspent my bonus totally as my camera says BYE BYE by committing suicide at the rocks by the sea and I have no choice to buy a new one. - I think I am forgetting how my new camera looks like as mommy brought it overseas after I bought it for 3 hours. - I am kinda of emotional for the past week as someone just left me alone (just like that) after making me so excited and comfortable with HIM. - I still don't know why it happen again. - I met up with my good fren and hopefully he get well soon and I can get my treat SOON! :) - It was SHIOK for the past 2 days as I am HOME-ALONE but it was kinda of irritating when I kept recieving calls from mom(at china) and brother (at sengkang) to spot check where am I. It makes me feel that I am being micro-controlled. - I had finally went back RP and it feels HOME-ED. - I tried to use SK II but end up, I had pimple outbreak. :(( - I had bought xmas presents for all loves && finally thought of what to buy for AMY LOW for her damm belated birthday present. - I don't think thats love for me but I can't help by feeling sad when you stopped to find me and chat as before.
I had recapped quite much. And the next post will be for xmassssssssssss!
AND FOR NOW, I JUST WANNA TO PARTEHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
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