"when was the last time you felt reaaaaaally happy." blogged mei rer.
I thought abt it.Suddenly. I realised I wasnt really happy all these while. Though I felt happy and laughed and having alil setbacks which I got back on my feet real fast but deep down. I wasnt really happy.
For a very long time, I didnt smile at the lil things that used to make me feel contented for the whole day or even the whole week. Is it because there is noone who really does all those lil things to me anymore or am I nt feeling any contented easily anymore ? Humans are always insatiable. Unable to settle for the little.
The past.
The excitement of looking forward to school everyday cause you have nice and fun classmates ; the euphoria you got from lil things that your frens done for you; the shouts of delightment.I used to smile when I see dumbass. I used to laugh non-stop with my sec sch pals. I used to run around with the duster to whack the guys. I used to cook with happiness for my xiao bao. I used to , I used to, I used to.
That was all in the past. Everything had changed when I stepped into the 18th of my life. That sucks.
I felt useless when I know I cant fight this battle anymore.
behind this glamourous facade. I am just a pathetic soul who cant fight on anymore.
I AM REAL ANNOYED. I DONT KNOW WHAT IS SO GOOD ABT HIM THAT EVERYONE IS ASKING ME ABT HIM. I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY PPL ARE GIVING SUCH ATTITUDE WHICH I DONT DESERVE AT ALL. I DONT UNDERSTAND I DONT. OKAYS, SHUT UP WANPIN.Labels: emotional, thoughts
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