after a few mins recieving the phonecall that tells me I got a 'not bad paying' full time job , I felt 'blank'.

I don't know why. I just think that things are moving too fast and flying past me without a notice.

And I wished I could just stop my life at this moment ryt now. Just doing some 'nonsensical jobs' (as what the adults said) and idling my life away. 

But I knew I can't make this happen.

Perhaps, its the thought of  starting my endless slavery to money and just slave away like any other people just scares me off.

Perhaps I wasn't that prepared to take up all these challenges that had laid out for me. Noone told me I had to face all these straight after my graduation. It is not fair. I hadn't had enough of everything ryt now. 

The route I take. The path I choose. It's all about my future. It's a major decision that I have to make right now and I can't afford to make any mistakes.  

And everyone is telling me I had made the ryt choice by signing at that blank but how RIGHT is that when I don't even know it myself?!!! 

I just feel fear now.

OR ,can I just have the tape recorder of my life that only has rewind or stop?