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Wednesday, March 19, 2008
I am harsh with my words at times. I have bad temper. I hate it when ppl assume and assume and assume they really know me very well when they dont. I hate it when I recieve smses which makes me flare (which normally dont) when I am alrd pulling myself back from flaring. I hate when ppl call me when I am the middle of roads with cars dashing across when I alrd say I am REACHING. I hate to see mistakes repeated. I dont understand why dont you get me. && everything starts to stress me up at this point of time. Or perhaps, its myself is the one who is pushing myself to my limits and stressing myself out. (finishing the notes that my PI gave me, settling all the dates with all my frens, cracking my brain over the vm and yet to please that crazy woman, handling the crazy woman at my workplace, hold my cool over those stupid things that happen at sch, work.) I dont have much time left seriously. As I just(literally) realised it wasnt anyone's fault to start with. Just dont blame it on yourself. I think its because I placed very high expectation && a set of unsaid rules for me and everyone. Its not anyone fault to start with. NOONE. So dont blame it on yourself, sweetie especally. && like what colorgenics says, I really need someone of my level to speak to.After that incident, I spoke to many. some might say just dont reply their calls and smses. some says just ignore these ppl. some says I shldnt had. BUT. I dont want to be irreponsible person who doesnt reply other calls and smses. I dont want to lose a "fren" over such stupid incidents.Its all abt responsibility and i believe everyone shld take everyone seriously. Many said to me" they dont cherish you thats why things ended like this. you are putting too much into the r/s. dont be stupid, just let them be what they want." But do you know how guilty do I feel everytime I made use of someone or to ignore someone's call and smses. I do make use of ppl at times but not to the extend of which might hurt them. As I think that ppl who really reply smses or call(s) slowly with their own sweet time is a bastard. What if that person is looking for you for a urgent matter ? You might think "haiya, he/she is just looking for my companion" But just , WHAT IF ITS NOT ? Have you thought abt that before? Why do ppl create phones and so many communication devices. Its all for these, ppl. As for now, I love today. Without having to worry abt anything. Practising my piano and doing my notes at my leisure feels so good. And xiu, dont feel bad of putting us aeroplane. We understand why. =)) Its all my fault alright, its my fault to make things turn out this way. I blamed myself yet noone. on a random note. walking the tougher path is easier than walking the easier path out smth. |